Today is March 1st which for the last 18 years has also been Self Injury Awareness day. The scars in the photograph are mine. The ones that are always on show because they are my arms. There are more, on my legs, on my stomach. Once upon a time I tried very hard to hide…… Continue reading Self Injury Awareness Day 2018
Day 31 I cant believe it, I actually finished! 31 days of running. 206km done. 12 Months ago I couldn’t run for more than a few minutes before stopping to catch my breath and I moaned the whole time we were out, this month I ran the distance of almost 5 marathons and enjoyed it. I’m…… Continue reading I did it!!!! Day 31 is done!
Day 8 done!!! This morning was a good example of why RED January is important. I opened my eyes after a horrible night of nightmares and little sleep, my first thought was I can’t do today. I stood in the shower feeling sick and shaking at the thought of leaving the house. But today was the…… Continue reading Day 8 done.
It is still unpleasantly grey here in Baku but today was a better day mental health wise. It started off wobbly when for the first time this year I could not bring myself to get out of bed. I had my head under the duvet and a few tears until 10am. I managed to get…… Continue reading A better day 🙂
Another crap day. Grey and cold. I can feel myself becoming more depressed. I really do think my general happiness is linked to sun, I was never happier than when we lived in Dubai. The UAE is the only country that I have ever lived in where I didn’t take medication. I miss it. A…… Continue reading Its raining, its pouring….
The best happy ending story I’ve read for a long time was this one today – Daddy reading Harry Potter saved his baby. ❤️❤️❤️ I fully admit this made me properly tears rolling down my face cry. Harry has a special place in my heart too, he helped keep me alive so many times over the years.…… Continue reading The magic of Harry Potter
I read an awesome article on The Mighty today. I kinda love that site, its full of stories that make me go “hey it’s not just me!” This is the article – When Depression and Dissociation Go Hand in Hand Wow I could have written that myself. I used to self harm to bring myself back,…… Continue reading I didn’t Choose this…
I’ve fallen a little bit in love with crochet. Who knew that 30 year after my gran tried so hard to get me to share her hobby I would finally sit down and teach myself it properly. It’s definitely something that could become addictive! Its relaxing in a way that helps me, not just that…… Continue reading 10 rows a day keeps the physiatrist away….
I read an article today written by a husband whose wife has depression and anxiety. It is a beautifully written letter that gave me a little tear in the corner of my eye while I was reading it (which was unfortunate timing since I was sat in the waiting room of the dreaded Dr Doom, useless Baku psychiatrist to…… Continue reading My Vigilant defender